I struggled with identity. 

I didn’t know who I was.

I gazed into my future and it was bleak. 

The image I saw was blurry and distorted.

I was afraid, distressed and depressed.

Joy and peace were lost from me, in their place were questions and doubt.

I read a book and it said, “Come to me”
So I dressed up and went to the place it called me to.

I entered and I sat, everybody was happy there. 

What could their secret be? I wondered.
I felt so out of place.

Then the choir began singing;
“I speak life, you’re gonna live oh my brother, my sister
I speak life, you are the head and not the tail, you will prevail.
I speak life, don’t give up the fight for your life, you shall live and not die”

Donald Lawrence wrote that song.
I went back home with that one song, it spoke to me in a way a thousand sermons didn’t.  

And I held on to it.

I saw hope, I saw a future, indeed something good could still come out of me.

That was my encounter right there.💯

I left the place full of joy and I kept coming back for that joy.

The next time I came, I looked up and I saw the theme of the year, “More than a Conqueror”

Roman 8:37

That theme gave me a name.
I became a new man. 

MALCOLM, a name I got but I never really knew the meaning. 

And right there on that pew, before my eyes, the words began to form.
M    - More than
A    - A Conqueror
L    -  Like 
C    - Christ
O    - Outstanding 
L    -  Lives in
M    - Me

I wrote it down and my life was never the same after that. I knew who I was now.

He who was in the region of darkness saw a great light. I heard something in that place and I ran with it.

I got a charge, I got a new mantra. 

Burdened with Glorious Purpose 
and by God it will be accomplished. 

I hope you see light too. 💥