You run away,
You hide your face,
You avoid me,
You literally act like I don't exist,
Why?

Where did it go wrong, Our relationship?
Why don't you want to talk with me anymore?
I thought we were friends, 
I thought we understood each other.
What happened to the laughter we shared, 
The heart-to-heart talks,
The prayers whispered through tears?

I care about you, 
I want to be in your life,
Not as a stranger you call when things go wrong,
But as your constant.
I want to be the first name on your lips,
The peace that quiets your storm,
The shoulder you lean on when the world feels too heavy.

When you’re with Me, you become.
You think clearer, you love deeper,
You live with purpose.
With Me, you flourish and excel.

Nobody gets to define your life for you,
I gave you freedom so you could choose Me.
Every time.
Every day.

You sin and you run.
You fall and you hide.
You mess up and you disappear.
Why?
When did shame become your home?

~‭1 John 1:9; “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

I know you’re tired.
Worn out.
Heartbroken.
Carrying more than you can say out loud.
But running won’t fix it, it only makes the ache louder.

I’m here.
Ready to hold your hand through it all.
Just let Me.

Let Me hold you when you fall,
Stand by you when you tremble,
Mold you when you break down,
Love you back to wholeness.

Because I never stopped choosing you.

So why hide,
when this isn’t hide and seek?
Why run,
when we’re not doing Olympics?

Come home.
Forgiven?
Yes, even before you asked.

And then my heart whispered

I feel dirty, 
guilty, 
unworthy of His forgiveness.

Yet I know I'm forgiven.
I know I am loved,
And chosen,
Because He saved me,
And cleansed me.

~Romans 3:25; "God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood, to be received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished.
26; "he did it to demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus."

So I will no longer run or hide from Him,
That's what the enemy wants.
I will stay close.
Even when I fall,
even when I wander.
I will return.

Thank you, Abba. 
For loving me still.
For calling me Yours,
For forgiving me,
again and again.