CHAPTER 1
"The Feeling of Emptiness can lead to seek evil"
Charlie's POV
People say that lack of Parental love can cause emptiness in ones Child. Really I didn't expect it to turn out to be my own case. My name is Charlie Wilson and I'm 18 years old.
My Mum left me when I was just 13 years old. She had this argument with my dad one night about cheating on her severally and my dad being toxic in their relationship.
That night while I was tucked in my bed trying to block their arguments from my ears I just plugged my ear piece on both ears.
I heard clattering of objects and rumbling and suddenly they all just die down when I began to hear the song Faded by Alan Walker playing.
I wouldn't lie it usually calms my mind down from thinking the opposite way. Mum's absent was like a scar that never tried to heal, up until this very day.
The taste of bitterness never left my heart. I thought severally that she didn't even care to text, call or even send letters, like did I ever exist to her as a son?
Ever since that day she left us, my dad became more of a total disgrace to Fatherhood. I mean being a parent is not all about the money, the wealth or fancy things you provide your kid with. Sometimes affections is needed, really it hurts I didn't grow up with that feeling up until now.
Sometimes I ask myself in the darkness of my room while I sat by the edge of my bed, tears rolling down my cheeks and carrying a heavy heart. Why was I born into this world?
There were something's really strange I realised about myself, something I couldn't open up to tell anyone most especially my Dad. I tried committing suicide with either the broken pieces of mummy's special vase in the store, or a sharp object and every time I tried it felt impossible.
What could this mean? I ask myself severally, as I would cut through my wrist yet the wound will just heal up by itself. It felt strange and funny as I played with this illusion of mine that felt real, leaving me with the question?
What am I?
