I never cared until everyone started to care about how I look. I decided to start exercising when I noticed the dips on my hips, my hips had a perfect shape, “why this indentation"? I was wandering. While growing I aspired to grow older because I thought maybe I would become a little fatter or bigger and maybe taller, but no!, those are just fantasies I guess. During an exercise, I quickly said a short prayer, “lord please don’t take the only beautiful thing I have, if you will not make me tall or big, leave my hips” That was somewhat ridiculous right? I think it is a valid complaint. 

I don’t usually care about how I look, but people will never cease to stop reminding me about what I look like, no exception to the internet, where there is a standard for “beautiful", leaving others insecure. To make matters worse my younger sister is taller and bigger, “ I offend God?, where was I when God was sharing all those”. Often while walking the streets people would ask if I was a primary school girl because they say I look like one. Sometimes it’s funny, other times annoying, people can be blunt sometimes.

There is nothing I can do, so I have to come to terms with it, I never cared and I should never care. No matter what you look like, and how imperfect you feel, do not let the world define you. Beauty is not what you look like but what you feel like. Close your ears to those voices that say you aren’t good enough. People will have to learn to see you as you see yourself, teach them. You are only human and this body will keep changing naturally and eventually fade away. I am beautifully made and so are you!