In Jos South, Kwata to be precise, I made a promise that would later become a burden.
I said yes to Nanlong, unaware of the weight of my words and the consequences that came with them.
At the time, I thought I was making the right decision, but little did I know that I was walking into a life of regret.
The days turned into weeks, and the weeks turned into months, and I began to feel trapped in a marriage that was suffocating me.
I started disliking Nanlong without reason, treating him harshly and unfairly, but he remained patient and kind.
His gentle nature haunted my conscience, but I hardened my heart, refusing to acknowledge the pain I was causing him.
I couldn't bear his presence, let alone share a bed with him, and the thought of intimacy with him filled me with disgust.
It irritated me, perhaps because my heart belonged to another, a man who was now off-limits to me.
Nanlong's friend, his mentor, the one who had captured my heart, was now a constant reminder of what could never be.
Now, I'm trapped in a marriage I can't escape, and I'm left with the agony of regret, a constant reminder of my mistake, a mistake that haunts me every day.

~Mashak Rinret & DidiX~